Frustration

when you're frustrated with a situation over which you have limited control, how do you try to get a handle on your frustration? are there any tips or tricks you've learned that are helpful?

lately, i've been increasingly frustrated w/ something in my life and that frustration is way out of proportion to the situation that sparked it. it's taken on a life of its very own and i've been finding that very fact frustrating, although i think i'm slowly getting a handle on it now.

most techniques i use, such as focusing on someone else's problems or trying to keep things in perspective are at best temporary. they provide a respite, a break.

i know it's tempting to say "fix the source of your frustration" but it's not that easy, you see: it's something over which i have at best limited influence. my previous attempts to fix it have, shall we say, not yielded the most satisfactory results.

so given that my influence over the matter is so limited, what tips or tricks can i try that i haven't already? i'm increasingly finding my frustration seeping out in ways that are extremely unusual and that's simply not acceptable.

as i matured..

As I mature I have realized:

* Communication must be made face to face whenever possible. SMS, IM, email can never convey emotion, no matter how many smileys and emoticons you put.

* Never waste your time over people who don't have time for you.

* Face your fears. It just takes one fear; once you're over it... you can face them all.

the beauty of samurai sword

" The samurai Sword is a thing of beauty, its blade unsurpassed by any other sword. Those that wield it have earned un-paralleled respect and honour. In times of our greatest difficulty, we look for the sharpest edge to end our pain and suffering, however like that sword, it is through the heat and fire and years of being beaten that the finest swords in the world are made. If you remember, when you feel that there is no hope, if you only wish for the end to take you, remember that you are the samurai sword and nothing can stop you after you get through this."


It is a quote to help in times when you feel there is no hope. It is there to remind you that when all is done, you are an unstoppable blade.

are you real or just pretend?

Do you ever stop to look at your life and yourself, and realize that most of the people around you don't really know you? Not the real you, anyway. They just know what you want them to know. We all go through life playing roles and acting out the parts we want to perform for the world. But very rarely is that the real us. It's just a small part of a much bigger picture.

Why do we keep those other parts hidden? Is it because we're afraid no one else will understand them? Or that no one would like us anymore if they knew? Or do we just assume that no one really wants to know the whole story, so we just give them the pretty parts? It is easier that way. And in the end, not many people really want to know more than that.

It's like when someone comes up to you and asks you, "how are you doing?" What do you usually say? You usually say you're fine, don't you? Your life might be a ball of crap, but if someone asks you how you are, you say you're fine. It's simpler that way. And it's what they expect to hear too. Think about what things would be like if everyone actually told the truth every time someone asked them that question? I'm betting no one would ever bother to ask again.

So we all go through life pretending we're fine. It's simply polite to do so. That's how we're conditioned to be. But what happens when someone comes along and they actually want to know the truth? They don't want to see the person you play on the TV screen of life. They want to see the real you. That can be scary. Because you've been playing the role for so long, you can't remember who that person is. And you don't remember what it's like to stop being polite and start acting real either.

But if you don't remember these things, no one will ever really know you. And even if it's your own fault, it can sometimes feel lonely to realize that. Because you know that if you were to ever let someone see who you were, you run the risk of them not liking that person. You already know they like the person you've shown them so far. Isn't it like false advertising if that person turns out to be only a small preview of the real thing? Will they want their money back when the show doesn't live up to expectations?

Previews are almost always better than the movie itself. The previews show you all the good jokes and make you laugh, and you just know if you pay full price and see the movie, you'll laugh even harder. But then you buy the ticket, and the show plays out, and you realize that the rest of it sucked. You were better off never seeing it because it was nothing at all like you thought it would be.

That's kind of how people can be too. I guess that's why most of us live our lives only showing the world our previews. But I guess sometimes it's good to let someone into the theater to see the rest of the story. It's not always easy to do that. I've never been very good at doing that. But I'm trying to change.

In your life, how good are you at showing people the real you? Do you only show them previews? Is there anyone who has seen the whole story? And if they did, did they walk out of theater shaking their heads saying, "I don't get it...." or "I want a refund...." Or were they pleasantly surprised with how the story played out?

" If you don't jump, you'll never fly."

I said this while talking to a friend. She was a making a decision and she did not know which option to choose. I pointed out one option she could use. She told me it was too risky. Then I told her, "If you don't jump, you'll never fly." What I mean is that if we never take chances, we won't know what we are able to gain and we won't benefit from what we are able to do. Be smart, but be decisive. Don't be risky, but take risks.

soundtrack of my life ..part 1

What is the soundtrack of your life? What is your currently theme song ? What song do you sing to perk up your spirit? this is mine...by oasis..whatever~~~

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want

I'm free to say whatever I
Whatever I like
If it's wrong or right it's alright

Always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much

Free to be whatever you
Whatever you say
If it comes my way it's alright

You're free to be wherever you
Wherever you please
You can shoot the breeze if you want

It always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want

Here in my mind
You know you might find
Something that you
You thought you once knew
But now it's all gone
And you know it's no fun
Yeah I know it's no fun
Oh I know it's no fun

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want

Whatever you do
Whatever you say
Yeah I know it's alright

Whatever you do
Whatever you say
Yeah I know it's alright

happy birthday leng 24-11-08

You have been such a wonderful friend to me. Both of us are leading such a life, my friend. A life at different spectrum's, colorful nonetheless :)

On your day, i wish you great health (to rock someone's life thoroughly someday), , exciting adventures and lots of happiness.

Happy birthday!

silent anxiety of control freak

Ever have one of those days where you feel as if you should be doing something to move along some aspect of your life? Like you know exactly where you need to be and what you need to do to get there but even though you have the will and gumption to do it, you have to wait for timing? Because of that requirement of timing, you feel as if you're not in control? I mean nothing is really standing in your way, you just have to wait for the train to get to you. But you have these nervous butterflies in your stomach and fear as if you don't move faster towards it, you might miss the opportunity? Your mind says, you have to wait for it. You agree whole-heartedly but there's something inside of you that causes you to try to find a way to make it happen NOW. WTF?! You know you would be ready even if it did happen at that instant, but you want it to happen nonetheless.

So you hold it inside and your brain is shuffling at light speed and you can't focus on anything. And all the while this is going on inside, you have this quietness on the outside. Nobody knows that chaos that's happening inside because you can't seem to control your anxiety. And you only have anxiety because you can't control time. WTF!? You try to find other things to occupy you and try to refocus but that ends up being a battle in itself. You finally relax not because you've conquered the anxiety but because your body is tired and you drift off into exhaust induced sleep. Only to wake youself up again with this growing hole inside that anxiety is still eating away at.

Psychosis. It's just the ever so quiet anxiety trip of a control freak.

The Last Goodbye

I don't believe you
And I never will
Oh I can't live by your side
With the lies you've tried to instill
I can't take anymore
I don't have to give you a reason
For leaving this time
Coz this is my last goodbye

It's like I hardly know you
But maybe I never did
It's like every emotion you showed me
You kept well hid
And every true word that you ever spoke
Was really deceiving
Now I'm leaving this time
Coz this is my last goodbye

I've gotta turn and walk away
I don't have anything left to say
I haven't already said before
I've grown tired of being used
And I'm sick and tired of being accused
Now I'm walking away from you
And I'm not coming back

my favourite quotes PArt 1

" The experiences that we encountered every day are the best lessons because they teach us how to become more mature and a better person in the future."

" It takes only "1" to change a relationship. It takes "2" to make it work."

" Just control your anger and temper for few HOURS and you can rule your life for YEARS."

" Being honest with others starts by being honest with yourself."

" Don't let your history interfere with your destiny."

" It is not always just about being responsible for your actions but also take into consideration the effects of your actions on others. They might be your loved ones and it might be too late for you to realize you've lost them and will never, ever, have them again."

" It's best to get involved with someone that has learned from their mistakes rather than being with someone that has yet to discover their future regrets."

" Be careful what you say to me today, for tomorrow you may wish you had never spoken."

" Moving on doesn't mean you gave up... it means you've found faith."

" Do not judge others by your own thoughts. They are living a different life than you are. What might be good for one person may not be good for another. What might be bad for one person might change another person's life. Allow people to make their own mistakes or their own decisions. We learn and grow with each decision and/or mistake that we make...but again, what might be a mistake for you would be a blessing for someone else."

always be my baby

today and tomorrow

" Today you suffer but tomorrow you will be happy. Everything that happens in our life, there's a purpose. What we need is to widen our understanding, be more patient and persevere because in the end there's a reward."

My prayer

" The supreme prayer of my heart is not to be learned, rich, famous, powerful, or "good", but simply to be radiant. I desire to radiate health, cheerfulness, calm courage, and good will. I wish to live without hate, whim, jealousy, envy, fear. I wish to be simple, honest, frank, natural, clean in mind and clean in body, unaffected - as ready to say "I do not know", if it be so, and to meet all men on an absolute equality - to face any obstacle and meet every difficulty unabashed and unafraid. I wish others to live their lives, too - up to their highest, fullest, and best. To that end I pray that I may never meddle, interfere, dictate, give advice that is not wanted, or assist when my services are not needed. If I can help people, I'll do it by giving them a chance to help themselves; and if I can uplift or inspire, let it be by example, inference, and suggestion, rather than by injunction and dictation. That is to say, I desire to be radiant - to radiate life."

selfish

I just don't understand
Why you're running from a good girl baby
Why you wanna turn your back on love
Why you've already given up
See I know you've been hurt before
But I swear I'll give you so much more
I swear I'll never let you down
Cause I swear it's you that I adore
And I can't help myself babe
Cause I think about you constantly
and my heart gets no rest over you

You can call me selfish
But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless
Cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect?
Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you
What's wrong with being selfish?

I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize
That for your there could be no one else
I just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me
If love was a crime
Then punish me
I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?

whats goes around comes around..

Hey man, is she everything
you wanted in a women?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in
time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
around


Now , I remember
everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

tired of being sick

I'm tired of the way things keep going. Why is everything happening to me... and all at once? I've been in and out of the hospital, seeing doctors... all this crap. I'm tired of it! Really tired of it! When will it be my chance for something good to happen?

have a little faith

How is it that life can be so full and complete one minute and in total disarray the next? How can you have everything that you thought you wanted out of life or at least a great portion and then just let it slip through your fingers? Life would be so much easier if we knew the morals to the stories before we had to live them. Almost like stories read to us as children, only they would be stories about adulthood; life’s responsibilities, love, and marriage...only I guess as children you wouldn't know a god damn thing about what the story was trying to tell you. I guess it all comes down to faith.

Faith in yourself that you made the right choice the first time, faith in others that they will always be there for you and faith in that the future will be just as bright as you always dreamed it would be as a child. The realistic side is that sometimes you get let down so much that that’s all you know...so when something wonderful does come along you find yourself not having that faith and only second guessing your every decision. How do you regain that faith once it’s lost? I guess it starts on the inside and works its way out. The greatest thing anyone can accomplish is to be happy with ones self. Only then can you in turn be happy with someone else and make them happy as well.

Someone once told me that life is about second chances. I just hope we all have the faith to realize when those second chances come around!

~~ TIME ~~

TIME WILL TELL. IF HE'S YOURS HE WILL COME BACK TO YOU NO MATTER WHAT....FOR THE TIME BEING LET YOURSELF MOVE ON....

hush hush~~

I never needed you to be strong,
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs,
I never needed pain,
I never needed strain,
My love for you was strong enough you should have known,
I never needed you for judgments,
I never needed you to question what I spend,
I never asked for help,
I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations,
There isn't anything for you to say,
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So look at me, and listen to me..

I don't want to stay another minute,
I don't want you to say a single word,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
There is no other way, I get the final say,
Because..
I don't want to do this any longer,
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
I've already spoken, our love is broken,
Baby, hush, hush.

I never needed your corrections,
On everything, from how I act, to what I say,
I never needed words,
I never needed hurts,
I never needed you to be there every day,
I'm sorry for the way I let go,
Or everything I won't need when you came along,
But I am never beaten, broken, not defeated,
I know that next to you is not where I belong,

And it's a little late for explanations,
There isn't anything that you can do,
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So you will listen when I say..

No more words, no more lies, no more cryin',

Happy Birthday Mom

I don't blame you for not wanting to read this short rant. I am having a miserable day...and I think I have every reason to be feeling so down and shitty. Anyways, not sure I want to talk about it...just wanted to say one thing. Maybe she reads my posts from up in Heaven...if that's where she is. Here goes nothing...

Happy Birthday Mom! I love you and miss you dearly!

i dont want talk about it ~~~

I don't wanna talk about changes
Changes come of their own free will
And if you wanna talk about leavin'
Well, you've always walked . . .
And, you always will
Every time you talk about love
You talk about your yesterdays
Yesterday's washing away
with this morning's rain

I don't wanna talk about it
Cuz love has a voice of its own
If all we do is try to out shout it
. . . then the love is gone

Can't you hear the voice of my heart
It calls your name in the middle of the night
It's always been a quiet voice
when it's breaking
I don't wanna talk about this love
This love was my saving grace
So, can't I just say that I love you . . .
and we'll call it a day?

moving on with brave heart ~~~

When will I learn to just move on. When will I learn that he is gone. he really hurt me and made me cry. Now he doesn't want me anymore.

Every time I tried to be by his side he pushed me away. But sadly all I wanna do is stay. he broke my heart so all i want to do is hide in the dark. I try to move on but all he ruined my ability . I sometime want him back but he doesn't want me so why should I bother.

After all that we've shared he doesn't even care. he doesn't realize what he's done to me. So I try to let him be. I won't bother to call or ask what's he's up to at all. he doesn't need my mess and don't need the stress. The best thing for me is to leave him alone. The best thing for me is to just move on.

let it be you...

Don't Wait for things to happen, make them happen, go after what your heart desires,
live in the moment, go to th edge, let fear be a motivator and not a enemy,
when someone says something hurtful, smile and wish them happiness, so they don't have
to express the sadness and anger they have inside, upon you and others

Take a risk, wear your heart on your sleeve, say how you feel, be who you are and don't let anyone make u feel ashamed of it. If you are sad, let the tears out, embrace
the many colors and depths life has to offer us, if you fall down, know where there is a will, there is a way,..and there is a way out, there is a way up, and as long as there is love, there is hope.

Be true to who you are, don't hide behind a cloud of doubt and uncertainty, let people love you for you, because love is unconditional...and if they don't want to love you for who , and all you are, then they weren't meant to be a part of your life and your heart in this lifetime.

If someone seeks to hurt you, have sympathy for them because people that are happy within
have to desire to hurt others... "it is the weak who are cruel" Seek to love yourself,
better yourself, better your life, and walk away, revenge is a poison that will only infect your mind and soul, besides they say success is the best revenge, so strive for success and happiness.

When you are down, and all seems like it is falling apart, don't let it, hold on and fight, and look to a better tomorrow, you are the navigator to your destiny, don't let the bad guys win.

Don't be afraid to jump, there may be consequences, but at least you can say you lived your life to the max and can never say "What If?"

Live in the moment, and let the moment take you to the next chapter, don't wait for the next chapter to come to you, because it may never find it's way to a book that didn't want to be opened.

thanks

well,, thanks to all my friends that been visiting me at the hosp and also to the blood donor's thanks you very very much and i really-really appreciate it!! I can wait to start work and see you guys again!!

im ok

So I haven't been around here in what seems like forever.
Well, im just done with my surgery...guess 2 weeks pass and all seems like a nightmare to me..never thought that i goin through it,,but guess what,,i make it now here i am ....back to my hommy and sit in front my computer and thinking bout what the future's bring....

here a very very simple info that u might want to know what i have been through

first week..
Monday- admitted to ward (noon),surgeon had confirm that im the 1st patient for the next day operation, escape for dinner for having my favorite sushi, back to ward
Tuesday-5.30am wake up, 7.35am in the operation theater, 7.40am Zzzzzz - , 4.00pm ICU
Wednesday - Still in ICU..anything that connected to my body being removed ( 2 tubes from my stomach, 1 tubes from my mouth, 3 branula for I.v line on my hand and 2 on my neck),2.00pm nurse give me some porridge to eat...4.am discharge from ICU and transfer back to normal ward
thursday- resting+physic training+monitoring
friday - resting+physic training+monitoring
saturday - resting+physic training+monitoring
sunday - resting+physic training+monitoring

monday- doctor has confirm to discharge and back home the next day
Tuesday- here i am...im home

"Behind this mask is more than skin. Behind this mask is ideas, and ideas are bulletproof.""-V for Vendetta

lucky

gorgeous! perfect harmonies...jason mraz continues to wow me.
Colbie and Jason wrote this song together by email. So I think its funny that it fits to anybody who has a long distance relationship :P

my way

Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

FRANK SINATRA

Things that imposibble to say when drunk...

sharing some funniest (",)

THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. No thanks, I'm married.
2. Nope, no more booze for me!
3. Sorry, but you're not really my type.
4. Taco Bell ? No thanks, I'm not hungry.
5. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight?
6. Oh, I couldn't! No one wants to hear me sing karaoke.
7. I'm not interested in fighting you.
8. Thank you, but I won't make any attempt to dance, I have no coordination. I'd hate to look like a fool!
9. Where is the nearest bathroom? I refuse to pee in this parking lot or on the side of the road.
10. I must be going home now, as I have to work in the morning.

if i should i leave today

Poems and pleas of Loved Ones, What they would say If they Had one More Day. We Don't hear what they would say...or if they are do we listen, or think we had lost it?

I would like to say that I love you all........Doesn't matter what or relationship was, or if you hurt me, I forgive you, and Please Forgive Me!!!! If I have hurt you in the Past or Just By My Passing...I am so Very Sorry. I never intentionally ever meant to hurt anyone!! Should I not Live another day I want you to be happy for me... I am in a far better place than you are and have a deeper understanding now of what "Life Is"!! I don't want you to suffer, Please remember the good times...even the smallest of memory is better than not having one at all.I believe I was Blessed having you In My Life, Even for the smallest of reasons. each person has given me a new piece of information, and each person that has passed on b4 me has a bit of them in my soul. Without them I could not be who I was or Am. Just know that I want you to learn what ever you can with what ever God gives you. Treasure it, you don't know when it will not be around again. I Only Wish Happiness For All...and sometimes we don't realize what we have till its Gone. But I did and I truly am Better for had having you in my Life!!!!!! Till We Meet Again.....On the other side.

thought of the purpose of life..

what does it all mean? What is the purpose of life? I have asked many people about life, happiness, and why they do what they do. I have heard it's about having a Mercedes Benz in the driveway or having a nice house, having that 60 thousand dollar a year job, and I have heard that life is about pleasing yourself.

To me life is about pleasing others, it's about putting a smile on someone else's face, it's about bumping into something during the night besides pillows, it's knowing that you would rather fight with them than love anyone else. Life is about love and that recognition of love in another. If it's not for love then you are just a robot going through the day to day motions piling up meaningless possessions and killing time until time kills you.

Love isn't something that you can work for, something you can buy, or something you find just anywhere. Love is a rare commodity that you can only be blessed with in time. It will often disguise itself and it can go just as quick as it came, so to those who have been blessed, live life for that love. For the rest of us, live life for the hope of that love!!

just a question???

It is funny what you end up doing when you are pushed into a corner and you have to make a decision .But its not just any decision - its a decision that will possible affect the rest of your life,and how you live it.
I find myself getting a piece of paper and writing down all the pro's and con's of an operation like that.when i talk to the surgeon they make it sound like its a routine op that gets done very day - but i know that its not and i know that they don't do it everyday.In spite of how they try and make it sound otherwise
I remember the movie "the bucket list"
So i thought to myself - do i have a bucket list? No,not really - i have pretty much been stubborn enough with my physical ability to try almost anything at least once.
So my question is this - if you knew that you were a 100% candidate for a surgical procedure that could possibly restrict your physical ability to do anything at all,without help - and you had a limited time left,say,5 years at the most :
What is there left to do in your life right now that you think you should do before you cant do it anymore or at all.?? Maybe something that you have done before that you would like to do again,or something that you haven't yet done that you would like to
Places you want to visit?
People you want to meet?
Anything...........................................................?

engineers....

A mechanical, electrical and computer engineer were riding together to an engineering seminar when the car suddenly began jerking and shuttering.
The mechanical engineer, said, "I think the car has a faulty carburetor."
The electrical engineer said, "No, I think the problem lies with the alternator."
The computer engineer brightened up and said, "I know, let`s stop the car, all get out of the car and get back in again!"

the pursuit of happiness

You know it amazes me what a person can endure but yet still have the faith to see the brighter side of things. That no matter what may go wrong, a person can still stand and say "I will not give up, I will not fade quietly into the night!" When everything in reality is telling you that something important in your life might be over or might never of gotten started at all, a person has the character and strength not to throw that towel into the ring of life. After all are we not a society that roots for the underdog? Somewhere deep inside we all root for that team to come back from 30 points in the 4th quarter and we all secretly hope that the guy gets the girl at the end of a tear jerking movie.

So then why do some people, sometimes myself included, tell others to give up while you are still ahead. But then I wonder... are we ever really ahead? Do we ever really have the upper hand in life or are we always the underdog? Some give up on the ones they love or the life they dream, but to give up is only to give in... to give in to what everyone else expects you do to. Whatever you do, dont conform to what others think is right for you, because only you know what is right for you.

If hanging on to the one you love when all odds are against you is right then so be it; if bouncing from job to job until you find something that is meaningful is what drives you then continue to do so; if moving to another country in pursuit of a happier life is all you dream about then make that dream a reality; and if you choose to go out on a limb for that one in a hundred longshot then go ahead and place the bet.

If it weren't for our hopes and dreams then we are nothing but robots going through the everyday motions of life. For those that continue to go after their dreams, then I commend you and for those that might be apprehensive about doing the same then I urge you. I urge you to follow your dreams and go after the God given right for the pursuit of happiness!!

warning letter! Just curious ..

last week (Monday) few of my friend been given warning letter for non compliance duty...
today few of my friend been asked to out of from the meeting room...

i was curious is this how meeting should be? by scolding them in front of people without think bout their feeling. should we just issue warning letter to them without see them personally and asking them why they cant comply the job..?
do they ever cross they mind that with continuous issuing warning letter will never help to solve the problem but will make the staff upset, give up, depress and at the end will resign?

Hmmm..is wondering..when will be my turn.!!

grab from lydiano...heheheh(saya suka ni ayat)!!

Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than I love him.
________________x________________________x_____________

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for
some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad
that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Bottom-line : Time will tell. If he's yours he will surely come back .

the learning disadvantaged??

I Wonder Who the Disadvantaged really are. Could it just Possibly be that we are the Handicapped ones....They have proven that many of the so called "Mentally Disabled" are in fact Super intelligent in some areas. So much that "Names" have changed over the years to Mentally Challenged.....Ever wonder why we don't remember infancy? Could it be our brain accepts the way society thinks we should think more readily...and all the unacceptable, thoughts, are programed as we develop more. Do the so called mentally Challenged really have one up on us...so that they can still see all that was given at Birth. Is that the Joy You see in their Faces? Have you ever let yourself go into their world mentally. You have to clear your mind to get there....same as with Babies..... It is a wonderful place. And what is so cool is they can pick you out ........they know when you make the effort to Come "UP" to their level

better in time..

oH MY GOSH!! I LIKE THIS SONG by leona lewis...

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

what is your hidden talent?

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

beauty or brain???

Like any other God’s creation, physical beauty needs no explanation. It’s like the Sun, the Calla Lily, the Starfish... wonderful and perfect in their own rights. A physically endowed human being needs not speak; its mere sight is enough to elicit awe. An exact symmetry of accurate proportion is one of the wonders of natural creation, no genetic engineering but they came out just as wonderful. Only God could have made such a beauty and a tad of luck in sperm and egg union.

However, not a lot of us are bestowed with such a gift---either we fall on the average or the so called aesthetically challenged.

While that might be the case, some beauty needs to be exhumed and discovered. It needs proving and verification just like any other invention. Intelligence. It doesn’t come easy nor is it earned like a penny. Though geniuses are just simply born with big brains, they have to work tediously to keep and nurture them. Others who belong to the average have to work harder to get a little closer to being smart.

Both are great, and when put to best use, will provide you a taste of paradise only money can afford.

Physical beauty thrives on physical preservation to keep it...otherwise, it will diminish just as quickly as an infant learns to walk. Intelligence is insatiable and feeds on knowledge for sustenance.

One can not have both, as usually is the case.

If in an outrageously impossible supposition, God would ask me to choose just one of which, Beauty or Brain...what should I say?

when Girls gone wild!!!!

Are you really deeply into it?

Somebody once told me that "Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong
.....it is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...
you'll always end up disappointed when you set standards and define a "right person" for you...
and don't rush things....coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you."
You can never be perfect...the person you love can never be perfect...but both of you can be perfect through love and prayers
, and your love can be perfect through the both of you. But, no relationship is complete without God....
.that's why we have marriage it's a bond not only between you and your loved one....but also with God.
Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not the right person....it's because we expected too much and we decided on our own.
...let God do the work...you may call it waiting time....but while you are waiting...pray.
Let God guide you always...He knows better. No, He knows best.
Love is not what you think it is....Sometimes we mistakenly feel that our first relationship will be our last.
Because we are overwhelmed with joy and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of truelove.
Some are saying that love is unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying oneself for the sake of someone very important in our life.
Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined. When we think we're in love the first thing
we almost wanted the whole world to know is that our love for someone very special can never be taken away from us.
We say this phrase "You are the most wonderful gift from GOD I have ever received..." And after a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say "
You are the biggest mistake i've ever made for my entire life...!!!!". Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?
Nobody can tell what love really is until experience speaks and whispers right into our ears.
Most of the time, these love promises like "Forever, till Death do us apart, etc." would end up "Never" and "We should part ways,
I'm no longer happy with you! My love for you is DEAD!!!".
Many times we thought after having committed to someone and your trust to one another freezes down to zero degree "She/He ain't the right one."
But the big question anyone could not answer is "Is she/he the right one?" and "When is the right time?"
That made us stick to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting for the right person to come and the right time to commit?
A big YES is the answer. Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are already into it.
Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want in a relationship.
You're right, There is no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it.
If you already knew that you're too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made.
If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell the rest of your life.
It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.
Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention.
Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself. More frequently than not, we all act in a hypocritical manner for some reason.
We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong, it's just pity.
We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable to face the storms of life.
We misunderstood, its just that we're too much dependent to them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us
and imagined that if they leave no one would accept us and our past.
We are mistaken, its just insecurity. But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something you can buy nor beg.
It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come.
It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it also can make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

wasted

"Everyday is a clean slate; we make it what it is. If we ponder on the things we can not change then we will never have time to enjoy life for what it is, but spend all of our time thinking about what it should be."...

nobody perfect

I think about this all the time and I try like hell to live my life by it. I love my life and I am truly blessed to have the people I do in it. Some days I just can’t find the upside to things. My point is not to complain but to simply state that you can not always be "great". There are days where I find it hard to face myself in the mirror, days where I feel I just can not coupe with life. Days where no matter what I can’t crack a smile. Days filled with sadness and heartache. And then I realize I am human. I to, have feelings and I can not always wear that mask and put on a smile only to hide what I truly feel, because in the end all I am doing is shielding the world of myself.

random thoughts

Have you ever woken up one day and were just totally caught off guard by how or where you are in your life? Like it's all a dream and at any minute you are going to snap out of it and everything in life will be right again! If only life were that easy.

The reality of it all is that the only way to make life right is by doing it yourself. By going after the things that you want the most. That might mean that you will look like a fumbling idiot along the way, maybe even a jackass at times, and people will probably laugh at you. Well you know what I say, let them laugh! Because a person with passion goes after the things that they want without hesitation and without fear of how they are perceived from others. And out of all the traits that a person can possess, I would have to say that passion is amongst the top. The passion for life, the passion for love, and the passion for obtaining happiness.

I would hope that we can all have that passion and bravery in our lives; the bravery to break way those chains and pursue those pleasures in life that we seek. But with every ying there is a yang, and with that bravery will come fear. Which is only natural to fear when you have the risk of losing. But the happiness in life that we seek is worth the risk and the love that we yearn for.

Those tears on our cheek will dry up, the aching heart in our chest will heal, and the empty arms of our soul will hold another! So chin up, and put a smile on...life will get better! :-)

Yesterday,today,tomorrow...

yesterday is a history,
tomorrow is the mystery,
today is a gift,
that why they called it present.

master Woog Guay, "Kung fu Panda"

depressed

I'm depressed! Yes, I said the big 'D' word... I'm depressed.

I feel like a worthless waste of space. I feel horrible most every day. If someone asks me how I am, I tell them I'm fine; when really...not to deep inside.

I lie awake in bed, thinking thoughts unintentionally...intense and upsetting thoughts, and believe me, they’re not the most comforting thoughts to fall asleep to. The worst thing about it is that there’s nothing I can do about it. I try to think happy thoughts, I really do. But I keep coming back to the same thoughts each and ever day. I'm hardly eating, often crying, and not sleeping because I'm afraid to fall asleep. I wont let myself go there because I know once I do, all the bad dreams will start again.

Lately, I've been having a lot of dreams from the past... specifically dealing with my mom. (God I miss her!) And I understand that this is likely because 8 years ago, I was watching her go through the exact same thing that I am now dealing with. I can't do it! :-( I feel so alone through it all... and I know I'm not, because I have great relatives and friends. but just don't think I can do it!
:-( I can't imagine myself making it through...I keep imagining myself giving up and losing this battle, and it scares me,,,But how do I stop doing this?

unanswered prayers

"Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talking to the man upstairs
That just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he don't care
Some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers."

sonnet 116

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

William Shakespeare

The confusion

Life can be so confusing sometimes. What to do, what not to do, what path to take, and what thoughts to listen to? So afraid of making a bad decision, life can be downright frightening. But what in life constitutes a bad decision? Is it choosing the wrong job, maybe the wrong girl or guy, or is it breaking the rules?

Sometimes bad decisions in life are necessary to find out who you are, to find what means the most to you, and to maybe find how special of a life you have. Those are not bad decisions by any means; those are simply lessons you learn, some harder than others. The bad decisions in life are the ones you make to pursue one of those lessons but then never actually learn them. Changing your life to find out who you are but then never actually looking into yourself to figure that out, is one of those mistakes.

The greatest accomplishment anyone can make is to know thyself and be happy with who you are. But what if you’re not happy with who you are or who you are with for that matter? Do you settle for something less than you deserve, or do you wait for someone who deserves you?

step outside the box

Have you ever got to a point in your life where you were scared to do something because that goes outside of "comfortable"? You think or dream of something you want to do... take a vacation, ask a person out, break up with the person you're with, or just plain do something different with your life. But for some reason it never goes beyond a thought or a day dream; all because you've gotten so comfortable with the way your life is now, that you don't want to risk changing it for the better.

Now let me clarify that there are two types of comfortable. There is the comfortable where "you are happpy with where your life is at and the goals that your life is heading toward", that is the good comfortable. Then there is the "I'm not really happy with where my life is at or where it's going, but it's still a good life to have and I don't want to risk losing it", thats the bad comfortable.

When did we start living a life that someone else would want, and stop living for the life that we have wanted our whole lives? Life is not about being comfortable, because comfortable leads to complacency, and complacency leads to taking the things in your life for granted. Once you start taking things for granted, you lose that natural instinct to live life to its fullest.

You do the same things every day, day in and day out, not because you want to but because you dont know how to travel outside of "your box". I understand that not everyone can be bold, and go after the things they want in life, or pursue something different because of fear. Fear of failing, fear of losing people that don't agree with your choices, and fear of being disappointed if you don't find what you are looking for.

To those people I say this...if you never try, you will always wonder. Life is about failure, but it's how far you bounce back from that failure that measures your worth. You might fail a hundred times before you find what you are looking for...but actually finding what completes you far outweighs any heartbreak you would of endured along the way. There is pain, suffering, and hardships along the broken road, but it leads to a place filled with happiness, love, and laughter. You will lose the people you thought were your friends, but you will gain totally devoted ones in return. You might leave behind a life that's not for you in search for one that is, and in the end you just might find what you are looking for.

It's not the end that is important, it's how you get there. We will all end up in a casket someday, it may be tomorrow, or it may be 70 years from now; but how you get there is up to you. Do you want to arrive at that casket safe, unscratched, and comfortable saying "I wish I had done more"...or do you want to slide in head first, scarred and broken from life screaming "that was one hell of a ride"? And who would you rather have at that funeral... the hundreds of people that don't know you...or the handful of ones that truly do?

Live life for today and not for tomorrow. Pursue the things in life you want and don't become complacent with the things you have. Love the ones that need your love in return and forget about the ones that don't. And above all have a great time doing it!!

let it be..

another Song By The Beatles to be inspired...

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

changes

It's funny how much things change. It's funny how much people change. In my life change always seems to be drastic and unexpected. While those types of change are hard to handle at the time, they are apparent, and therefore can be dealt with in a more logical way.

The changes that I've noticed lately are so diminutive and gradual you don't even realize they are occurring until you look at their result on your life over a long period of time. People come into your life and influence you, and you in turn influence others. All these things change who we are. The person who was your best friend in high school may now be a completely different person than you knew then.

It's almost sad to me. Why can't we hold on to what's dear to us? It's like we don't have any choice in the matter. Things change, people change, and that's just the way it is. Every little thing we do, every person we come in contact with changes us in some small way. Every experience combined is the sum of who we are. It's scary that the small choices we make now can have such a large effect on our future.

I remember being 15 and thinking I was grown...thinking I knew everything. I look back on those years and I know how naive I was. I am so different now than I was then, and I'm only 25. What will I be like in 8 more years? The possibilities are vastly overwhelming. I just hope that I can hold on to what gives me a sense of self... what i believe in, my family, and my friends who are my strength.

love

Love is a glorious feeling and a pain
Love is letting go and longing
Love is a mistake which you believe is right
Love is right but it made you wanted to die
Why is strenght but made you wanted to die
Why love is so complicated?
im confused and cant comprehend
why i cant have the love i wanted??

dont judge me

Please don't judge me by my face
By my friends or what you hear
Please don't laugh at what I wear
Or how I look or do my hair
Please look deep inside of me
And although you may not see it
I have a lot to hide.
Behind my clothes, the secrets lie
Behind my smile, I softly cry.
Please look deep inside,
And maybe you will find
The lonely girl that lives in me
Please listen carefully to her
She'll show that she is insecure
Please try to be a friend to her
And maybe you will see,
That if you just look deep enough
You'll find the real me.

the books of our lives

I know we have all had the times where life seems to pile things onto an already heavy load. The times where our legs seem so tired that we are about to fall face first into the dirt. Well when you are at these trying times, ask yourself what is it all for, why are you doing this?

For me it's my faith... the faith that my dreams are about to come true. The faith that a life lasting love is in my future. How can it seem like the wicked go unpunished while the good are tried and tried again? We all have our demons that we battle, some of us battle more often than others. So whether it be faith, the lord, or a loved one, we all must find our strength and keep it close to our hearts. For it will be this strength that gets you through these battles. Because life is anything but fair, and often times it can be downright mean. But when you are in that darkness, there is light even though it cannot be seen.

There is a purpose to life like a moral to the children's book of life. Although we cannot read these pages or skip to the end to see what happens, as characters in this book of life we can continue to move forward. We can continue to brush ourselves off, find our strength in times of need, and march through those pages toward our moral in life. For each of our own stories are being read at this very moment, our pages are being turned, as we move through the experiences of our book to a moral in our own personal story. Granted that some of us are in the chapters of heartbreak and loneliness, while others are in the chapters of love and happiness, we all are on a journey.

But if you fail to brush yourself off while face first in that dirt, if you take that deep breath in defeat, our story is not a story at all... but merely ideas that never made it to the library of life!

are you happy??

Are you happy with what you're doing? Are you happy with your life? Are you happy with your career? It's so much easier and enjoyable to work, if you work with passion - that is if you really love what you're doing. You're giddy and excited when you're with the one you're in love - same thing with work.

Watch or read Pursuit of Happiness to be inspired! It will really make you happy.

friends

I've been thinking about friendship a lot today. How many true friends are you really ever going to have at one time, much less throughout your entire life? Probably not many. There are very few people...I mean like 2 maybe 3...that I would do anything for and that know everything about me. Not that I don't have a lot of people I call my friends and hang out with, but true friends are few and far between. I'm sure we've all been talked about, stabbed in the back, and had our feelings hurt by those who we thought we could trust. I know I have. As corny as it sounds, make sure you treat your friends the way you want to be treated. I am constantly amazed at how much small gestures mean to a friend in need. If a friend calls you at 3 am, or any time of the day for that matter, answer the phone. They may need you the most at that moment, and trust me they will remember that you were there for them. I just feel like if I'm a good friend, my friends will reciprocate that and my life will be a much happier place to live. My friends are my life...I would do anything for them and I know some of them would do anything for me. I cherish every memory I have with my friends because one day they might not be around and the memories will be all I have left. How will my friends remember me? Hopefully they will say I was always there...

i cant find the words.....

I can't seem to find the words to write anything. So I will write nothing. Or next to nothing. I have lost all my desire to write. I'm not sure why, but I have.

I'm in a troubled place right now in my life, I need help (as the song says), and am just unsure where to look for it. I've thought many times about leaving this place, thinking it would be easier. But each time I realized that leaving this place would change the person who I am.




HELP..
(McCartney/Lennon)
Recorded Live: August 1, 1965, ABC Theatre, Blackpool

Help, I need somebody, help, not just anybody,
help, you know I need someone, help.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured,
now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down,
and I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
won't you please, please, help me.

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
my independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like I've never done before.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down,
and I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
won't you please, please, help me.

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in any way.
But now these daya are gone, I'm not so self assured,
now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down,
and I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
won't you please, please, help me, help me, help me, oh.

Escape...

Another Farewell PArty....

Josh , Yvone And Kevin
nailyn..im gonna miss you!!

ugly me wif kevin, yvone, tims, Ak

my friends

why!

I guess I've been thinking way too much lately. I want more in my life.

I'm tired of the way things keep going. Why is everything happening to me... and all at once? I'm tired of it! Really tired of it! When will it be my chance for something good to happen?

I feel like, I'm alone. I have nobody 'here'. I'm scared to get close to people because I don't want to be hurt again, and I'm afraid of rejection. I don't know what to do at times and I feel like there is nothing I can do. I feel hopeless and helpless.

Why this sudden mood? I have no idea! I just wish I could understand myself again...

i dont love you...

Looking at the reflection in the mirror

Looking at the reflection in the mirror, I ponder for a moment. Remembering times when life was far more complex and much less difficult. Wondering if I will gain control of who I am, what I stand for and my future?

My happiness depends on myself and myself only. I feel as though I have an idea of what that might compel. However I have not the slightest idea of what it will take to really get there. Things can seem so out of reach sometimes. I'm just trying day by day to get a little further, jumping hurdles and working my way through the obstacles that are laid out in front of me. I seem to be getting very good at dodging what life is throwing at me though.

As I continue to stare at my reflection, I notice something. I'm jaded, it is written all over my face and there is no denying that I have neglected myself. Taking all the time in the world to please everyone around me, I have simply pushed myself to the side and left no time to tend to me. I seem to be spinning in circles trying to make sense of what is twirling around me. It is all moving too fast, I find it hard grasp on to anything when it is flying by me at the speed of light. The reflection staring back at me is clearly trying to tell me something. It is just a matter of figuring it all out.

Life seems much more complicated these days, far more than it ever has before. I find myself second guessing who I really am and what it is I want out of my life. But I am surely working on it. And as I stare deeper into the face looking back at me, I realize I am a lot stronger than I put off. And with that strength I will make it through anything. I know what my boundaries are and I carry my values and self-respect with me no matter where I go. I have grown to be independent and strong willed. I just have to let go of my insecurities and fears to allow myself to become who I want to be.

???

Being a hopeless romantic at heart, I often think about different aspects of relationships. I consider myself one of the rare few who has found the one person she/he was meant to spend forever with. But I wonder about those couples who don't have that deep soul mate bond. How close are they? Does your significant other really miss you when you're away, or are they fairly independent from you? For true love to be there, I believe that you need to miss the other person in order for your love to grow stronger.
So, here's my question..... What is your significant other thinking when you're apart? Is he/she too caught up in their own life to care, or does the separation drive them even further into your arms?

my pain

there is nothing but pain in life,
life is everything pain
i cant live without
why do we have it
you wonder because
if we didnt have pain
then that would not
make us who we are
but maybe who we are is not who we want to be
i know i never expected my life turn out this way
these are times when i want end everything and MAYBE
one day i will finally
take that razor for the last time
and slide it across my wrists and end the pain
and then i can watch everyone from above
that way i wont cause anymore pain
for my family and friends... MAYBE

i am for wat i am !!

"I AM WHAT I AM! I be what i wanna be,..I am STRICT, to other jurisdiction, opinion, and thoughts, I can be WILD whenever I wanna be, I tend to HATE myself,..but often thinking twice for my future,..COMMITMENT is killing me, but I kinda like it,..Coz I know, life is PRICELESS, for me to buy a new one! I HATE THIS and THAT,..WHY? Because it change me into sumbody that i dont wanna be,...This is so not me when it comes to a matter of heart? I rather use my brain than using my heart to live in this f**king world,..My BRAIN is my greatest aset,...SO BE IT!!!"

i'll be OK!!

When everything is going wrong And things are just a little strange its been so long now You've forgotten how to smile.And overhead the skies are clear But it still seems to rain on you,And your only friends all have Better things to do.

When you're down and lost And you need a helping hand When you're down and lost Along the way,Oh, just tell yourselfAh, I'll be OK

Now things are only getting worse And you need someone to take the blame When your lover's gone There's no-one to share the pain,You're sleeping with the TV on And All the alcohol in the world Would never help me to forget

out of reach...

Knew the signs Wasn't rightI was stupid for a while Swept away by you And now i feel like a fool So confused,My hearts brused Was i ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so farI never had your heart Out of reach,Couldn't see We were never meant to be Catch myself From despair I could drown If i stay here Keeping busy everyday I know i will be ok But i was S o confused,My hearts brused Was i ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far never had your heart Out of reach Couldn't see We were never meant to be So much hurt,So much pain Takes A while to regain What is lost, inside And i hope that in time you'll be out of my mind And i'll be over you. But now i'm So confused,My hearts brused Was i ever loved by you? i can see Theres a life out there For me.

words of the day

Don’t limit yourself. Many people limit themselves to what they think they can do. You can go as far as your mind lets you. What you believe, remember, you can achieve.

work on LABOUR DAY!!!

I hate it when I have to work on Public Holiday, today on labour day. This is supposed to be a day for me to rest.

im back

hey people im back to blogging !its been damn long i stop blogging. lols.i guess im damn busy with my works... study.....

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Yang berbeda

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Tetapi hatiku

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Kau hancurkan hatiku

Hancurkan lagi

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Tuk melihatmu

Kau terangi jiwaku

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Membuatku terjatuh

Dan terjatuh lagi

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Yang tlah terjadi

Semua yang terbaik

Dan yang terlewati

Semua yang terhenti

Tanpa kuakhiri

Peterpan

Horrible...

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ' Im just looking for a friend' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

The effect of music on me

There's something funny about the effect of music on me. If I get addicted to a tune, REALLY addicted to it, I forget about everything else. It's like having a crush: there's you, there's the song, and no other song can fill your need for listening to music like that one does.

Like many strong crushes I've had, also, the song is forgotten after a while. Few of them are songs for keeping, I suppose. Less of them are songs I'd actually love. This is a metaphor for my pattern of relationships, oh God. How predictive I am. Or, well, how predictive we all are. Let's see.
There's that first sign of attraction we've all felt for so many songs. That song has something that gets your attention, it sticks in your head, you've noticed something special about it. You find yourself thinking about that song a lot, and, well, if you're a little sick like me, obsessing over it.

Then, there's the actually going out, and you'll find out if that song has what it takes for you to actually date it. Then, comes trust: does that song really mean something for you? You'll find that it has flaws and not just qualities, you'll see that sometimes it can make you cry like it's the end of the world. And then, even when you go through this same process with other songs, you'll find yourself going back to that few special ones. They're your keepers. They are the ones that can make you feel so good about yourself - even if, sometimes, they make you think about all the bad things in your life and how everything is not ok. Or, if that doesn't happen, you'll soon get tired of the song, find out that you were only interested in it superficially and move on to the next song. Circle of life, people.

But, yes, I'm feeling a little optimistic today about love and songs. I can be single, but my "songs for a lifetime" are my friends. They're my keepers.

Anyhow, speaking of songs, I've got a new one coming back to my head. I know it for a while, but just now it's really getting to me.



Listening To: OCEAN DEEP by Cliff Richard meet my current crush. Who knows, it could be a keeper O_o

10 Reasons you should date an Engineer O_o

10. The world does revolve around
us... we choose the coordinate system.

9. No "couple" enjoy a
better "moment".

8. We know how to handle stress and
strain in a relationship.

7. We have significant figures.

6. We understand the motion of rigid
bodies.

5. Projectile motion: Do we need to
say more?

4. Engineers do it to specification.

3. According to Newton, if two bodies
interact, their forces are equal and
opposite.

2. We know it's not the length of the
vector that counts, but how you apply
the force.

1. WE KNOW THE RIGHT HAND RULE!


grab from fanthagiro

everyhting happenz 4 a reason...

Sometimes people come into your life
and you know right away that they were
meant to be there…to serve some sort
of purpose, teach you a lesson or help
figure out who you are or who you want
to become. You never know who these
people may be but you lock eyes with
them, you know that very moment that
they will affect your life in some
profound way.

History Mystery

Abraham Lincoln was elected to Congress in 1846.
John F. Kennedy was elected to Congress in 1946.

Abraham Lincoln was elected President in 1860.
John F. Kennedy was elected President in 1960.

Both were particularly concerned with civil rights.
Both wives lost their children while living in the White House.

Both Presidents were shot on a Friday.
Both Presidents were shot in the head

Now it gets really weird.

Lincoln 's secretary was named Kennedy..
Kennedy's Secretary was named Lincoln .

Both were assassinated by Southerners.
Both were succeeded by Southerners named Johnson.

Andrew Johnson, who succeeded Lincoln , was born in 1808.
Lyndon Johnson, who succeeded Kennedy, was born in 1908.

John Wilkes Booth, who assassinated Lincoln , was born in 1839.
Lee Harvey Oswald, who assassinated Kennedy, was born in 1939.

Both assassins were known by their three names.
Both names are composed of fifteen letters.

Now hang on to your seat.

Lincoln was shot at the theater named 'Ford.'
Kennedy was shot in a car called ' Lincoln ' made by 'Ford.'

Lincoln was shot in a theater and his assassin ran and hid in a warehouse.
Kennedy was shot from a warehouse and his assassin ran and hid in a theater.

Booth and Oswald were assassinated before their trials.

And here's the kicker...

A week before Lincoln was shot, he was in Monroe , Maryland
A week before Kennedy was shot, he was with Marilyn Monroe.

Creepy huh?