whats goes around comes around..

Hey man, is she everything
you wanted in a women?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in
time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
around


Now , I remember
everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

tired of being sick

I'm tired of the way things keep going. Why is everything happening to me... and all at once? I've been in and out of the hospital, seeing doctors... all this crap. I'm tired of it! Really tired of it! When will it be my chance for something good to happen?

have a little faith

How is it that life can be so full and complete one minute and in total disarray the next? How can you have everything that you thought you wanted out of life or at least a great portion and then just let it slip through your fingers? Life would be so much easier if we knew the morals to the stories before we had to live them. Almost like stories read to us as children, only they would be stories about adulthood; life’s responsibilities, love, and marriage...only I guess as children you wouldn't know a god damn thing about what the story was trying to tell you. I guess it all comes down to faith.

Faith in yourself that you made the right choice the first time, faith in others that they will always be there for you and faith in that the future will be just as bright as you always dreamed it would be as a child. The realistic side is that sometimes you get let down so much that that’s all you know...so when something wonderful does come along you find yourself not having that faith and only second guessing your every decision. How do you regain that faith once it’s lost? I guess it starts on the inside and works its way out. The greatest thing anyone can accomplish is to be happy with ones self. Only then can you in turn be happy with someone else and make them happy as well.

Someone once told me that life is about second chances. I just hope we all have the faith to realize when those second chances come around!

~~ TIME ~~

TIME WILL TELL. IF HE'S YOURS HE WILL COME BACK TO YOU NO MATTER WHAT....FOR THE TIME BEING LET YOURSELF MOVE ON....

hush hush~~

I never needed you to be strong,
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs,
I never needed pain,
I never needed strain,
My love for you was strong enough you should have known,
I never needed you for judgments,
I never needed you to question what I spend,
I never asked for help,
I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations,
There isn't anything for you to say,
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So look at me, and listen to me..

I don't want to stay another minute,
I don't want you to say a single word,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
There is no other way, I get the final say,
Because..
I don't want to do this any longer,
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
I've already spoken, our love is broken,
Baby, hush, hush.

I never needed your corrections,
On everything, from how I act, to what I say,
I never needed words,
I never needed hurts,
I never needed you to be there every day,
I'm sorry for the way I let go,
Or everything I won't need when you came along,
But I am never beaten, broken, not defeated,
I know that next to you is not where I belong,

And it's a little late for explanations,
There isn't anything that you can do,
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So you will listen when I say..

No more words, no more lies, no more cryin',

Happy Birthday Mom

I don't blame you for not wanting to read this short rant. I am having a miserable day...and I think I have every reason to be feeling so down and shitty. Anyways, not sure I want to talk about it...just wanted to say one thing. Maybe she reads my posts from up in Heaven...if that's where she is. Here goes nothing...

Happy Birthday Mom! I love you and miss you dearly!

i dont want talk about it ~~~

I don't wanna talk about changes
Changes come of their own free will
And if you wanna talk about leavin'
Well, you've always walked . . .
And, you always will
Every time you talk about love
You talk about your yesterdays
Yesterday's washing away
with this morning's rain

I don't wanna talk about it
Cuz love has a voice of its own
If all we do is try to out shout it
. . . then the love is gone

Can't you hear the voice of my heart
It calls your name in the middle of the night
It's always been a quiet voice
when it's breaking
I don't wanna talk about this love
This love was my saving grace
So, can't I just say that I love you . . .
and we'll call it a day?