why!

I guess I've been thinking way too much lately. I want more in my life.

I'm tired of the way things keep going. Why is everything happening to me... and all at once? I'm tired of it! Really tired of it! When will it be my chance for something good to happen?

I feel like, I'm alone. I have nobody 'here'. I'm scared to get close to people because I don't want to be hurt again, and I'm afraid of rejection. I don't know what to do at times and I feel like there is nothing I can do. I feel hopeless and helpless.

Why this sudden mood? I have no idea! I just wish I could understand myself again...